Ok I just realized how the hell am I going to keep a notify list when internet time is already so limited??? Ok, here's what I'll do. I'm keeping the notify list, so if I ever need to notify you guys, for any reason, maybe an urgent update, or whatever, all you guys on my notify list will be the first to know! But I really can't e-mail y'all everytime I update!! I am so incredibly sorry for the inconveinence, please don't be mad *hides face*... :(

In other news... Um?? Let's see... OH YA! Guess what? Well I guess you can't really guess... so let me tell you what happened. Well it was Saturday, Tyler asked if I wanted to go over and watch a movie at his house with him. He feels really bad for me, being all cooped up at home all the time, and when he asked me to come over it was almost like he had to ask me because he felt guilty or something... I freaked out on him on the phone and told him I didn't want him to feel bad for me and ask me over just to make him feel better about things. I was yelling and talking so fast I didn't even stop to breathe. When I did stop I broke out in tears and wouldn't stop. He tried to explain to me that it wasn't like that at all, but I was so upset! He told me to hold on and he hung up. I totally took that the wrong way and sat on my bed bawling my eyes out for a half an hour. All of a sudden there was a knock at the door and my mom came in my room to tell me that Tyler was here. She tried to ask me why I was crying but I told her to tell Tyler to go home. He came in my room and sat donw next to me. In these exact words he said,

"Allyson, you don't even understand how much I still like you and how much I care... I've just been distant lately because I thought you needed your space... I really wanted you to come over tonight... You are the most beautiful girl I've ever met... Please just give me a chance, to at least get to know you better... You mean so much to me." I started crying again and hugged him so tight!!! It was the sweetest thing in the world... I honestly felt like I was floating in the clouds.

After that little speech I changed my clothes and fixed my hair while Tyler talked to my mom. He recently got his drivers lisence so he drove me over to his house and we cuddled and watched a couple movies. He was being so sweet, and we talked a lot. During the first movie we were laughing about something and he stopped and smiled, "You're so pretty when you laugh..." I smiled and was about to say thanks but he slowly leaned in and kissed me... it was so soft and sweet... I loved it. After that he kissed a couple more times, each one got better and better... I had an amazing time with him, he made me feel so good about myself! Afterwards he drove me home because I had to by home by midnight... He walked me to my door and kissed me for a long time... Then he did the sweetest thing in the entire world... He had his hands around my waist and they slowly pulled away but one rubbed my stomach gently and he said, "You're such a great person... you'll be such a great mom." And he left. It was so sweet...

We've been talking on the phone since then but we haven't gotten together because he's been working so much!!! GOD I MISS HIM!!!

Allyson