Life sucks. I am unwanted. Which explains my quiz score... man this totally blows. I know that I shouldn't be thinking about suicide and I really don't think I'd ever have the guts to do anything that stupid... but then again, sometimes I wonder why I'm not already dead. It's not only the fact that the one love of my life just broke my heart... it's now the constant realisation that I am alone, pregnant, expected to raise a fricken child! I am a child! Yeah sure I knew all this before, but without Aaron at my side it seems one hundred times worse. I mean, I know he'll still support the baby and give me all the help I need, because Aaron is like that. He's the sweetest, kindest person in the world... but he's not emotionally there for me, and that's what I need. I want him back so much it hurts. Oh man, I want this stupid THING out of me so I can die.

Allyson

P.S Aaron called 3 times today in the last hour. I'm still not talking to him.