Honestly, I don't even see the point in living anymore. I feel so damn empty, and it hurts. I'm numb again... I feel like a worthless whore who deserves to die. Here I am knocked up, unwanted, and a fucking bitch to everyone. My mom, my friends, and Aaron. Omg Diary I love him so much, why can't he see that?? I can't live without him, I just can't. I've missed a full week of school and I'm in so much physical and emotional pain... I just can't live like this anymore. Aaron has been calling me every day but I can't talk to him, any of my friends, not even my own mother. She is so worried that I'm going to kill myself... I might just do that. Would Aaron even care? Would anybody? The only thing that is fucking holding me back from slitting my goddamned wrists and dying is this thing inside me. In some odd way it feels like it cares for me. Sometimes I feel it inside me, telling me to hang in there, and that it loves me... Or maybe I'm going crazy???

Why won't this pain go away??? I am nothing without him. Nothing.