Well yesterday everything was fine. I woke up, puked, faught with mom... the usual. I went to Aaron's locker in the morning and he gave me a hug... but I could sense it. It was empty. At lunch I was eating in the cafeteria with Reese, Holly, and Tabitha and Aaron came over and asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. He kept asking me what I was thinking, and why we got so distant lately. My heart filled with hope that he finally cared about us being so... different. Then we sat down and he hugged me again... like a sympahty hug. He took my hand and kissed me so soft. I kept asking him what was going on.

"Allyson... it's just not right."

"What?"

"Us. We're so unhappy together. I just feel like it's a chore to keep us together."

"What are you saying?"

"I just don't think we should be together anymore. I'll still be there for you... but as a friend. And your baby's father. I just need a break."

"No Aaron... no please. We can work it out. You're all I have Aaron, please don't do this. I love you."

"I love you too Allyson... but we just can't..."

I was BAWLING... omg I was crying like crazy. I wouldn't stop and after sitting there and crying on Aaron I could tell he was getting angry. He kept telling me to calm down. CALM DOWN!? What the hell is he thinking!? How could he do this to me... to our baby? I understand that he wants to take it easy, but couldn't we have worked things out?!? Oh Diary I KNOW he's not planning on comming back. He has everything right now... tons of girls, he's on every sports team, he's got so many friends... he doesn't need me. EVER. I'm a stupid SLUT girl that got pregnant and everyone knows. I deserve to die.

I had to leave school early. As I walked through the hall to get my books I saw Aaron out of the corner of my eye. Surrouded by a group of people, and girls all over him. And that fucking hoe Julie hanging all over him. I wanted to fucking shoot myself. Just let him watch me die right there infront of him...

I went home and mom got off work early. She cried with me but told me that it was his choice and she can't do anything about it. She said she just has to make sure that he takes care of the baby. And that's it. He's free to do whatever he wants. Or whoever he wants...

Almost dead,

allyson