Well I'm home from school today... I have been all week except Monday. The morning sickness has been as it's worst this week and I hate it so much. I just sit in bed crying and throwing up. I feel too dizzy to go to school, but much to tired to keep up with my school work... I used to be an honour student and now everything seems like it's going downhill... BIGTIME. Aaron says there are three other girls in the school who already have babies... yeah sure, but they aren't 14!!! They are like in OAC or grade 12. Ugh, why did this happen to me so early? Why didn't I listen to my mom??? Now look at me. I'm a fat, stupid, sick, ugly, pregnant 14 year old expected to raise a baby. A baby!

Mom says that there was a week when she was pregnant that the morning sickness was way worse than all the others. I hope that's all it is, because I can't stand being this sick anymore! I want to go to school, I want to learn, I want to be with my friends... I want to be like my friends.

Allyson

P.S Thanks for sticking up for me in the g-book, the last thing I need right now is critism... I already understand the terrible mistake I made that's ruining my life and everyone around me.