Diary, I can't go to school with this... this baby inside me. I'll be able to go to school for like 2 months then I'll start to show and there's no way I'm going to school all fat and pregnant. No one's going to find out. Only the people who know now. I'm going to go to high school completely normal... just like everyone else...

I went to Kyle's today and it was raining so we watched movies and sat around on his computer playing this perverted porno games on his computer. He's so funny, but he's such... such a guy! His friend Brad came over afterwards and I made them Kraft dinner, (lol) and kicked their butts at pool. I came home for dinner and sat on the porch with mom. It's so peaceful at night, just me, her, and the stars. We talk a lot now. She was telling me about maybe getting a tutor when I start to show so that I can keep up with my grades. But how can she afford that??? She said there's the option of going to a school for pregnant teen girls. It's in the next city, about an hour away, but she thinks it will be alot better for me... so that I can relate with some other girls. I still don't know... I don't want to leave anything behind... but I guess I'll have to...

Allyson