I slept forever. It felt good to escape reality for a while. I was dancing in a feild and there was music coming from somewhere... I was trying to find it. Someone was holding my hand but everytime I turned to see who it was, there was no one there. It was odd... yet comforting. Last night Aaron and I just layed on the couch and watched T.V, we never spoke... it was like we were dead. Mom kept coming in and starting up a conversation... but it didn't last too long. We watched T.V till around 10:30pm, then we went to bed. Mom didn't even say anything when Aaron and I crawled into bed together... she kinda knew we had to be together. How can she be so understanding and so nice, when I've let her down so terribly? I was wearing shorts and Aaron's old volleyball t-shirt that he gave me when we first started going out. It used to smell like him so I wore it to bed every night... now it just brings tears to my eyes... we were so young, so clueless. No we're about to be parents. I shudder at the word. When I think of parents I think of a balding man and an older woman. Certainly not a 14 year old and a 15 year old. Anyway, when we got into bed we kinda just layed therefor a couple minutes. Aaron started drawing on my back just like he used to, and I cuddled into him.

"Allyson...?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you forgive me?"

I was speechless.

"I love you Allyson."

"Aaron... I love you too. And I forgive you... we did this together, and I hope we'll work it out together."

He hugged me so tight. My breasts are already starting to get tender so it hurt a little.

From there we talked about everything. About the nights we made love, about our futures, everything. I even started to get kind of excited about the whole thing... almost. He said he doesn't care if it's a boy or girl, he's going to be there for it. Omg, I love him so much, I'm so glad he's going to be there for me... He also started talking about giving up sports, or whatever I needed him to. I told him not to give up anything yet, and I'd try to do the same. Of course in the future that will be impossible, but for now... I think we can manage. Well I thought so... then I thought about dance. Mom called the day I told her I thought I was pregnant and told them that I won't be coming in for a while. I haven't been in at all. And I think dance is the last thing I will be able to concentrate on during the whole pregnancy. I started crying right then and there. I wouldn't stop either, Aaron had to hold me for an hour untill I stopped crying about it. I'm even starting to cry right now... I can't give it up... dance is... was my life. But now the baby is my life, and it's all my fault. Also my friends... they've been calling for days but I haven't taken one call. That's another thing I'm going to see less of... this is terrible diary. I'm going to lose them. I hold on to the little thought in my mind that maybe... just maybe this was all a false alarm... maybe I'm not pregnant. I mean, the only symptoms I've shown are tender breats, fatigue, head aches... missing my period. Yeah right. I never knew I have shown so many. Oh diary... why me? Please God, if this is a false alarm I promise to be so much more careful. No sex untill marriage. I promise... please God? Who am I kidding. The doctor said I was. It's a fact.

This morning I woke up at 12pm and Aaron was still sleeping. I just layed there and stared at him, he's so beautiful when he sleeps... he's so peaceful! I love him so much diary... you don't even know... I thought we were alone but then mom came in to check on us, I guess she took the day off work. She smiled and left us alone again. I kissed Aaron on the forehead and cuddled in with him again. He woke up shortly after and hugged me back. We talked a little more and then kissed, our first real kiss since thise whole situation was discovered... it was really nice. We come out at like 1:30pm and got beakfast. Then I went to change while Aaron finished eating. When I came out of my room I saw Aaron talking to my mom in the kitchen. The last thing I saw him say was "thank you" and then they both hugged for a long time. It was so moving that my eyes filled with tears. I went bck in my room and wiped them away. When I came out Aaron was in the bathroom and mom was cleaning up. They don't know I saw... it was soo touching... it was beautiful...

That's it for now, Aaron's watching TV, I'm going to go join him.

Love Allyson