Yeah it was positive. My mom started bawling and I just stood there... my heart sank. It's like I'm not alive. I was numb and couldn't move. I got in my bed and screamed. I screamed! I never ever scream. I screamed and cried and threw all my pictures, my candles, everything beside my bed. My mom had to come in and hold me down before I broke anything else. I was out of control. Tears were flowing. When I calmed down I just layed in my bed and kept telling myself my life was over. My pillow was drenched. My mom was sitting with me, she was crying to, but she was rubbing my back and telling me everything was going to be ok. How can she say that??? Everything is not going to be ok. Who the hell is she kidding? I told Aaron yesterday. He was gone when I found out. Out with friends. Can you believe him??!?! I was so damn mad, but I didn't want to tell him anyway. My mom told his parents and they told him. We're both scared. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. Why was i sooo stupid?!?!? I talked to Aaron on the phone and his parents brought him over. He looked terrible. He was crying diary... CRYING. He never cries. I never scream. This is like a dream. He was holding me and telling me how sorry he was, he told me it was all his fault. He was scaring me... he told me he deserved to die. But he can't. I need him more than ever. Everything's so messed up. This can't be happening. We just held eachother crying forever. Everytime my mom tries to talk to me I bawl. I can't even listen to her. I love my mom, I just can't accept the fact that I'm... preg. Maybe the test was wrong. Omg, I need Aaron here now... my mom said he can sleep over tonight so that we cna be together. This is such a shock... omg I can't go on...