I know I haven't been writing everyday to keep you all updated, I'm so sorry... my diary has been the last thing on my mind lately... However, my diary is the only thing I can fully confide in, therefor I will never abandon it, it's so incredibly important to me.
Well Aaron came over on Wednesday night and he knew I had to tell him something important. He came over, sat on the couch next to me, and my mom sat in the chair. I told him that my mom knew about us having sex. His face turned pitch white. He obviously thought that was bad enough... untill I told him everything. I couldn't bring myself to tell him, so my mom had to jump in as I stuttered and bursted into tears. "We hold nothing against you honey," She said, "This was a decision you both made... but now Allyson is at the risk of pregnancy..."
Aaron was speechless. "No Mrs. _______, we used protection..." he said quietly.
"Everytime?"
Aaron put his head down.
"Why don't you tell him Allyson?" My mom said, keeping her calm.
"My... my period hasn't come." I
Let's just say Aaron was scared. He started shaking and wouldn't look at me. My mom came over and was rubbing our backs. I was crying, Aaron was just... shocked. My mom picked up the phone to call his parents and he started freaking out. It took us a good 45 minutes to convince him that we had to tell his parents. My mom called them and told them to come over because we had to talk to them. They came and sat in the the den with us. My mom told them because Aaron and I were too nervous. Aaron's mom flipped out and his dad just put his head in his hands. I'll never forget that night as long as I live. Aaron didn't look at me the entire time. I had to put my hand in his so that I felt some confort while our parents talked about it. I hardly heard what they were saying, everything was rushing through my head so fast. They talked for a long time and Aaron finally put his arm around me. He asked me if I was ok and I shook my head. I whispered to him that I didn't tell my mom about the "incident" and that I never will. He seemed to relax. Aaron's parents thanked my mother for telling them, blah blah. They didn't really talk to me, except for, "We're here for you sweetie, we're going to work this out." They decided to finally go home and said they were going to have a long "talk" with Aaron because they didn't believe he understood what situation he has gotten himself into. Bullshit. He's such a smart guy, he's well aware of what he's gotten himself into, he needs some alone with me to work things out. Again I hardly slept. We went to the doctors early that morning to get my tests done. My doctor said he would have the results in by Saturday... so we're gonna find out tomorrow. My doctor was really nice about it though, she acted as if it was normal and asked my mom if she wanted "the pill" prescribed if I'm not pregnant. My mom said yeah. She still thinks I'm gonna have sex??? Yeah right. Not after all this. You all won't understand untill you're in my position, but seriously don't have sex at all. If you do, be really careful... you have no idea how scary this is. My doctor was asking me all these questions about symptoms and stuff. When she asked me if I get headaches a lot and if I'm really tired I said yeah. She told me those were symptoms of pregnancy. I got really scared... and ym stress? Another symptom. Oh crap this isn't looking good. When I got home from the doctor's I went back to sleep and my mom woke me up 2 hours later. She said Aaron had called wanting to talk to me and she invited him over. I didn't want to see him. Not after last night. What was he going to do, sit on the edge of my bed and stare at me as if I'm a freak show? I told my mom to tell him to go home and I went back to bed. I was awakened, this time by Aaron. He looked really terrible, his hair was all messy, and his face was pale. He crawled in bed next to me and held me. We both just layed there, not saying a word. My mom came in to check on us, she asked us if we needed to talk but we said no. He held me for so long. It felt so good to know that he was there. We talked for a little after that, he told me that he had a long talk with his parents and that his parents are pissed bigtime. He really doesn't know what's going to happen untill we find out the results for sure. We both slept a little more. Well he did... I layed awake and looked at him. Will he stand by me if I am pregnant? He seemed like he would... I know I'm going to keep the baby, mom and I alreay talked about it. But then again, I have no choice, I'm 14 and stuck with a baby if I want it or not. He's 15 and can turn his back on me at any point... I hope I mean as much to him as he means to me... I need him so much diary... so much...
Ally
