Well since my last entry a couple of people have left notes for me. That's so sweet, thanks guyz if you're reading this! :)

I was thinking about telling my mom, she is pretty cool with things like this, but I know she wouldn't let me see Aaron, and she'd find out that I wasn't a virgin and i don't want to disappoint her... Plus Aaron called me the day after. I was shaking when I was talking to him, I'm so scared of him. I told him I couldn't be with him, I don't deserve it and it could happen agan. *Thanks firetiger, bugbite, and katie09* He kept saying he was so sorry and has never done anything as bad as that in his entire life. He said if he lost me his life would be over, he loves me so much. For an hour he talked to me pleading with me and everything. We cried together, I didn't want to let him go. It was pouring rain outside and he said he wanted to prove how much he loved me. He hung up and I didn't know what he was doing, but I didn't want to see him. I cried on my bed untill I heard a knock at the door. I thought it was my mom home from work and her hands were full but when I opened the door it was Aaron. He was soaking wet and he looked so helpless. I just hugged him and we stood there for like ten mintues just hugging. I felt like I used to feel, so protected and trusting. I couldn't let him go. I'm going to give him another chance. He told me he ws drunk and that he won't even drink anymore if I don't want him too. He saw that I was still wearing the ring, he was so happy diary. You have to know him to understand, he'll never hurt me again. I know he won't. He had some clothes at my house that he left there a long time ago so he changed into those and we just layed on my bed like we used to. Just holding eachother... it was nice. I love him Diary. I do. He left before my mom got home and I called Kristah. I told her what happend. She was sooooo mad, and she kept asking if I was ok. She has never been raped but she did have a controlling boyfriend so she understands everything. She knows I can't just break up with him. But she's really mad. She won't tell anyone though, I can trust her. She's the best, I love her!!! She might come over tonight to pick out hair styles for grad.

By the way, my Grad's on Wednesday... I'm so excited! I haven't asked Aaron to come yet, because I don't think I should have him come to the last thing my class will be doing together. Besides, I'm going with Reese and I'm looking foward to spending the night with him. I think I'm gonna go call him so bye bye for now!

*~Ally~*