Well another busy weekend! I was looking foward to just hanging out and resting this weekend but Aaron begged me to go to this party with him. It was this Dave guy's in grade 11 and he only invited like 30 people so Aaron said it wouldnt be too wild. This Dave kid is like loaded and when we got there everyone was hooking up. When Aaron went with his friends I sat with Lindsay, she was high and actign like a retard. Aaron asked me if he could smoke up and I said yeah, since he never does anymore. I just had a little bit of weed, I wasn't even high. Aaron was though, but not too bad. We went to this room upstairs and locked the door. I thought we were just going to make out, and we did at first but Aaron wanted more. I told him I wasn't feeling well but he wanted me to go down on him so bad. I really didn't want to diary... but he made me. He didn't hit me or anything, he would never do that, and I could tell he was high and couldn't help most of it. He made me do it, it's not like I haven't before, but I haven't done it too often, and it's still sorta scary. When I was done I rolled over on the bed, he put his arms around me but I was crying. I hate when he's high.

Allyson