Well I had a pretty shitty day. Before I start talking about my days, I should get my story straight. You read about how I got here in my first entry... well here's the rest.
Grade school has always been a blast, my best friends are Taylor, Brittany, Kristah(BFF) and Jordan. We're the chicks who all hang out in a clique. My best guy friends are Brian (he's a hottie and always been my bud) Reese (one of my exes, we dated on and off in grade 7, hes awesome and hot) Kyle (Skater boy, awesome kid!) And of course my boyfriend Aaron. Brian and Reese go to my school in grade 8, Kyle's in grade 10 and lives on my street, and Aaron is in grade 9. I have lots of other guy friends too but these are my best ones! I don't want to sound conceited but my clique is the "popular" girls. All my friends are rich and have brand name clothes and stuff. I'm the only one who isn't rich... but since it's just me and my mom I get all the clothes I want. My mom loves shopping for me.
How I met Aaron: Well it was the starting of grade eight... Kristah, Jordan, Reese, Brian and I were all chillin at the skate park. At this time Jordan and Reese were going out so they were off making out. I think Kristah was in love with Brian at this time (even though she won't admit it!) so she was flirting away. Then HE was walking by, he first started talking to some kids by the ramps, then noticed Brian and ran over. I guess he was one of Brian's sister's friends. They started talking but I was totally speechless, I mean this guy was gorgeuse! Brian introduced me to Aaron and we all went out to get some lunch at Burger King. He was flirting with me the whole time and I couldn't help myself from flirting back! He got my number that day and started calling me. We talked a lot but since we went to different schools and he's in high school, we hardly ever saw eachother. It was one night he invited me to a party and we were "just friends" that things changed. Some girl liked him and she was in grade 10, so I sat on the couch at the party and felt like shit because while he was smoking pot with his friends I kept staring at the stupid bitch. She was beautiful and a slut, who wouldn't go out with her? When he came back I hadn't even drunk anything yet but he didn't care. He stayed with me on the couch the whole time and eventually I told him that I was jealous of that girl and that I liked him so much. He said he liked me so much too, I told him he was high and that he didn’t mean it. But he wasn't high… he hardly took any weed. Ok I know this sounds bad but bare with me. Anyway he kissed me and we started making out on the couch, he was my fourth kiss after Reese and these other two guys. After that night he told me he really liked me and he was going to do everything possible to keep me forever and make things work out. I've been in love with him ever since. So from that night we've been a couple! We've been going out since Jan. 23rd 2002, so it's been 3 months. =) He's so hot! He's tall, he was brown hair, blonde highlights, tanned skin, a six pack mmm mmm! I got drunk for the first time with him, gave my first hand job to him, and he was the first guy to ever finger me. I love him so much! Well and yeah I lost my virginity to him. I'll explain a little later… about the drugs… she used to do them a lot in grade 8 because he was depressed and went through a "rebel" stage yah know? But he's stopped and he promised me with all his heart he won't do it again. I trust him with my world. We spend a lot of time together and I'm friends with his friends and he's friends with mine. It's perfect. He comes over a lot and my mom loves him, she says he's really sweet and she already gave me the sex talk and everything.
My mom works from 8am - 3:30pm so we never get time alone at my house. His dad works and his mom is home all the time so there's no luck at his either. Last week we both skipped school and went over to my apartment… We were on my bed and we were really into it. Tell me something, if you were on a bed with the guy you loved so much and you felt ready, would you go all the way? Think really hard here… maybe you wouldn't but I did. I wanted to. He pulled of my underwear and I let him. When he went inside me it hurt so damn bad, but it was what I wanted. I wanted him inside me. We were a rhythm… I never thought something so beautiful would hurt so damn much. There was blood everywhere. We had to clean everything up before my mom got home and then I layed in bed pretending to be sick so when the school called my mom would think that's why I stayed home. Aaron kissed me and layed with me till about 3pm, then he went home before my mom came home. It was something I don't regret… but I'm going to hold out till I do it again… it's just something that you need to be prepared for. Aaron and I talked about it and we were so stupid not to use a condom. He apologized to me sooo many times, he feels so bad. But it's ok because I don't think I have a good chance of being pregnant. We're going to take a test this week. The only people who know about all that are Kristah and Taylor… I had to tell someone and I really trust those two. Well now you know too. I hope you liked this entry because it took me forever to write it! Now at least you understand my story a little better so you'll know what's going on in all my entries!
Love you always n' forever…
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